Waiting On The Lord, Freedom in Not Knowing & A Peak Into The Move To Nashville

When I first moved to Nashville, there felt like a lot of external pressure to articulate what in the world I was doing here. One of the first questions you get asked is “Why did you move?” or “Where do you work?” For context, I moved because Holy Spirit picked my life up and put me here. I didn’t move for a job, a relationship, or for the music industry here.

At first, it was easy to say something along the lines of “being obedient.” And while that was true, I felt like the longer I stayed, the more secure I should feel in this story. Now that I am more than 2 years in, I do feel secure in why the Lord moved me here but even in the first full year, I had questions and expectations that were left unanswered. There was a lot of pressure to prove and I found myself grasping for a semblance of control and an external image of success. 

I think if the Lord was to show me how all of this was going to work out back in May 2021 I would have actually thought this was too much.  I would have been too shaken to take steps forward. For a gal who doesn’t do well with change, just about everything that could have changed in two years, has. If I would have known that at the beginning, I don’t know if I would have been as obedient. I had to wait on the Lord to reveal each new step and lesson as they came.

I took this picture on day one of living here. This was my first apartment key with the Tennessee state flag. So wholesome, so cutie.

Psalm 25 tells me that no one who waits on the Lord will be put to shame.

Throughout this journey, I have been pointed to parts in scripture where the Lord asks key players to trust Him with promises and instruction. He doesn’t give Abraham a promise as big as “I am going to make you the Father of many Nations” and then leave it up to Abraham to figure out how to make it happen. If you know the story, you know Abraham sure tried, but it was never on His shoulders to figure out. 

Maybe you’re like me and my buddy Abraham. Maybe you know the Lord has spoken to you and you are eager to carry forward something the Lord has called you to. Maybe you know the promises the Lord has spoken over your life but you keep coming up short in trying to bring those promises to pass on your own.

This is my encouragement for us-

There’s freedom in not knowing. 

Not being able to plan, and not being able to grasp threads of control is scary. 

But I wonder what would happen if we took the questions hanging out in our minds straight to Jesus. I have been confessing my deep expectations on myself to my friends and to Jesus lately. Lord don’t let me hold things that aren’t mine to hold.

There’s freedom in not knowing. 

There’s freedom in not having answers to some big questions. In the most honest way possible, I think if I knew, I wouldn’t have been as obedient (or obedient at all), and I think if I knew I would have taken the glory that was reserved for Him all along.

If I knew, I wouldn’t be the one writing this story. 

If I knew, I could take the glory for this. 

If I knew, I would run instead of taking slow steps. 

If I knew, I would miss the sweet trust fall the Lord is inviting me into. 

No one who waits on the Lord will be put to shame. Psalm 25.